Porn star called roxy raye! Super hot, has done some extreme anal stuff that honestly inspired me a bit to try it, she's done some kinkier stuff as well, I'm honestly more an erotica person than a pornstar person but definitely a fan of her. Unfortunately she was in a really serious car accident. She's ok afaik thankfully, but doesn't do porn any more. Really should have recognized the gender envy from watching her for what it was but hey
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Yeah, she's like, the only pornstar I've ever looked for specifically tbh. Goals tbh
Ime, people who are curious about anal and want to try putting something up their butt aren't big enough to take cucumbers (or at least they think so, you're stretchier than you realize), and people who can take larger stuff have actual toys that are better in every way. Although, as improv dildos, they're actually not bad imo. Better than most everything else I tried when I was a curious butt noob
There's always someone who's looking to interpret what you say as badly as possible so they can feel good about confronting you about it. I'm not being like "oh people these days are too sensitive", just... some people take everything way too seriously and are looking for things to be upset over and I hate when that's me. Really pokes my anxiety tbh. I want to stress it's not like I'm out here making shitty edgy jokes and then getting upset when no one likes them, it's just day to day comments. I dunno. I overthink a lot about whether I'm the problem, had an extremely negative self image for a long time where I blamed myself for every negative interaction I had and it's hard to let that go.
Like, just happened
https://lemmy.world/comment/9888819
And like there's genuinely good positive replies and interactions, but they don't stick with me like the negative ones do.
I'm mentally fragile I guess, I just honestly do my best to be an understanding and accepting and positive person and it hurts to have somebody think the opposite, even though their opinion has absolutely no bearing on my life. I dunno, it's... I guess it's because I'm trying to be perfectly pleasing people generally and when I fall short of that impossible standard it hurts. I'm massively overthinking this, I know. Just something that's been weighing on my mind.
I've been commenting less because it feels like the amount of vitriol is going up. Why stress myself with people's responses when no one really cares what I have to say
Honestly a bit surprised
You can filter by keyword in sync. Only way reddit was useable tbh
Would anyone not get it, lol
Demon core memes have been absolutely fucking everywhere
Yeah, and I completely understand that. Just from a logical perspective though, lets say the process happens after you fall asleep normally at night. If you can't tell it happened, does it matter? I've been really desensitized to the idea of dying through suicidal ideation throughout most of my life (much better now), so I'm able to look at it without the normal emotional aversion to it. If teleportation existed, via this same method, I don't think I'd have qualms about at least trying it. Certainly wouldn't expect other people to but to me I don't think it's that big a deal. I wouldn't do a mind upload scenario, but moreso due to a complete lack of trust in system maintenance and security, and a doubt that true conciousness can be achieved digitally. If it's flesh and blood to flesh and blood though? I'd definitely try
I mean, if I die instantaneously and painlessly, and conciousness is seemingly continuous for the surviving copy, why would I care?
My conciousness might not continue but I lose consciousness every day. Someone exists who is me and lives their (my) life. I totally understand peoples aversion to death but I also don't see any difference to falling asleep and waking up. You lose consciousness, then a person who's lived your life and is you regains consciousness. Idk
Question: why does my life has more value than my cats? We both think, we both feel. We both have people who love us.
Is mine more valuable because I have a longer lifespan? Are children with terminal cancer less valuable?
Is mine worth more because I'm self aware? I'm pretty sure some cats have shown self awareness with the mirror test.
Sure, I may be smarter. But, does that make me intrinsically more valuable? Why?
Ok I like to take coconut oil, the kind that's a solid at room temp, melt it, and let it solidify in ice cube trays at room temp. Then, when I go to put a plug in long term, I pop a lube cube in first. Easy long term lubing