Sorry for not making paragraphs. I never was good at it.

Neural diseases is how we call them in my mother tongue. Idk what they're called in English. Neuralgia is the closest word I guess. These are not mental disorders nor diseases that affect brain in general. These are things like Tourette syndrome.

Everyone says so but sometimes getting a therapist is impossible or not worth it (like in my case getting a therapist means going to the active war area).

And please just stop paying attention on me. This stupid and perverted world has defeated me already. I'm dead. My physical body (and brain as a part of it) is still alive smh so that's why I can speak but I lost everything and there's no "me" anymore. I'm a bit of a psychologist. I see stuff like this.

I consider everyone (except people who are a part of the most traditional paths of one exact religion but that's besides the point) horrible. Everyone has and does something very wrong that hurts them and others. And the social environment hurts them even more, especially if they try to be different. Just leave me alone and let me die in suffer like all weak, diseased or unadapted organisms in this world. If I'm better, I'll get a reward or at least save my honor. If there's nothing except this world and this is what it changed to, I refuse to adapt and survive. This is just pathetic

EDIT: i feel much better today thanks to isolation and medication. I think now you can clearly see that I'm very unstable